The Hardest Decisions I Made Writing The Alpha Flame
Scenes I nearly cut. Moments I couldn’t soften. And choices I still think about.
The Toughest Choices I Made Writing The Alpha Flame
Writing The Alpha Flame: Discovery wasn’t just about crafting a good story, it was about telling a hard truth. And truth, as it turns out, is a minefield of difficult decisions.
There were scenes I didn’t want to write. Conversations that felt too close to things I’ve lived. Moments where I questioned whether a reader would hate me for what I was about to put them through.
Scenes I Nearly Cut
The bathroom scene after the attack, where Mary washes Beth and Maggie, was almost left out. Not because it wasn’t powerful, but because it was too powerful. Too raw. But that’s why it had to stay. It wasn’t about violence. It was about aftermath. Care. Recovery.
Letting Rick Be Too Real
Rick isn’t a cartoon villain. He’s human, and that’s what makes him terrifying. I worried people might say he was “too much” or “unbelievable.” But unfortunately, I’ve known men like him. We all have. Writing him without filters was a deliberate choice, and one I stand by.
Not Fading to Black
I agonised over the sex scenes, especially with Beth’s work. Should I imply more and show less? But in the end, I chose transparency over tastefulness. Because for Beth, sex isn’t romantic. It’s survival. For Maggie, it’s a confusion of power, pleasure, and pain. To write that honestly, I had to go there.
And Still… Holding Back
There were darker things. Things I didn’t include. And maybe one day I will. But even in a book this raw, I had to draw a line. Not everything needs to be on the page. Some wounds are best hinted at, not for modesty, but for mercy.
Explore The Alpha Flame here or message me with the scenes that stayed with you.